right now we are done, we are over, you don’t want to be with me
i am letting you go, you are better off right now and soon i hope i will be better too
i love you and always will
i am to my weakest
you don’t think of me nearly as much how i think of you
you are not hurt nearly as much as me
you are far better off right now, you are doing good and i think this should stay permanent for your sake
i will be okay, but its better for one person to come out good than for both to come out terrible
i know no matter how it ends i will not be okay for a while,
this is me letting you go
bye i love you
you’ve gone three times without me
the words “you will have to face this anyways”
but three days in a row, thats really hard on my little heart that can barely handle this
what we just went through, you were just there for me and i wanted to say thanks
and then you didn’t stay
you didn’t stay because we are not dating, i need to think about that more
you have it so easy, you make it look so easy and i need to start pretending to do that so then it will actually become easy, fake it til it works
you talked to me about if i thought about marriage, you talked to me about how this is just one relationship
it makes me want to let you go now, you will have more girlfriends and won’t marry me, we could move on and be friends it will just be the hardest thing ever because i love you and you love me too
but i don’t want to because i want us to have the chance to be together, i will miss you so much and it will be so hard and there is nothing to truly break us up right now
today
you gave me unexpected kisses and i thought that was it
then you kissed me more and everything was back, it actually came flooding back all the feelings i’ve been trying to hide and we could finally loosen up and be us again
it was the best thing ever and i’m scared it was just a tease
i’m so scared to lose us right now..
it seems like things will be okay, but i think you are confused like i am now
i miss you so much even though i was just with you a few hours ago
today made me really hopeful and really happy
come on get your head out from under the blanket
out from under the pillow house you make around your head
stop pressing your forehead against the wall
stop showering just so it looks like you aren’t crying
stop dropping everything you are doing
i really don’t care anymore, i am not up to standards with these other girls and am not going to compare myself anymore but its hard it hurts sometimes
